avoiding homework

I'm having a hard time doing some rewrite of an essay I thought was just perfect to begin with...(yes, sometimes I can be quite the stubborn self-assured artiste) so I thought I'd at least do something constructive and come on here and write.

To say that I feel on top of things is as close as it gets to what is actually happening in my life. Not to say that I am actually doing all the things I ought to be doing, but the things that are coming at me a hundred m.p.h. are getting handled. And smoothly.

I don't know where this is coming from. I mean I guess I do, I'm just doing all the things I said I would do, but I'm not sure why I'm doing them. For instance, the homework that I'm avoiding? I wouldn't even think that I could do it today, why not do it tomorrow? I have time before class. Right before class, but whatever.

Last week I did my homework for my Monday afternoon class the Saturday before. That is pretty amazing for Miss Pro Cro (as my sister aptly shortened from procrastinator).

And today, my day off, I spent the morning making breakfast for Eric, a little bit of yoga, organizing a heaping pile on my shelf, packing a box of unneeded items, cleaning the shells we got on the Cape (see, that was over a month ago!), cleaned the bathroom, took a shower and now I am dressed up and beautiful for our date tonight.

Not bad for a day's work, eh?

I have to admit, there were a few slacking off moments and for sure there were thoughts like: Just do it...tomorrow.

I realized that there was a lot of procrastinating that was impeding on the other stuff I had to do. And if I just did the things I said I would when I had time to, then I wouldn't have such a hard time juggling everything. But it wasn't easy to get. I kind of get away with a lot of crap from almost everyone. One lady that I babysit for really set the final nail into my procrastination coffin.

I was supposed to babysit in the morning but I still had homework to do. So I woke up early, a few hours, and did the homework. But I took too long to do it and didn't give myself enough time to get ready. I figured it would be okay if I came a little late. I called her to let her know and then got ready and left. I was surprised when she was totally upset, because she'd had somewhere to be and wondered if maybe it wasn't going to work out if I couldn't be on time.

If anything can straighten out a procrastinator like me, it's the threat of losing esteem, friendship, and very importantly, income.

The thing is, I actually really like doing things when I have time to, instead of just doing it later. So I am going to try to keep on this roll. It's been a long life of procrastinating (which my sister can attest to) but I think I can turn the habit around.

Wish me luck.